I sat in the studio yesterday, looking forward to a little alone time, in the quiet space that has always given me a sense of calm. My goal was to sit and meditate, but even in the quiet, I could not stop my mind from jumping from one worry to the next. How long will we have to wait to allow our classes back in the studio? Is the fear ever going to subside that someone I know could get sick, or worse? When can I tell my daughters that "the sickness" is gone and they can play at friends' houses again? What else can I do to help others feel safe? These questions, like so many others, rattle around unanswered.
The truth is, I don't know. And while I love having the answer to everything, I am learning to accept that I just don't know. Now more than ever, I am relying on the tools yoga teaches me: take a moment, close my eyes, steady my breath, devote my love to someone or something, and be in the present moment. The worry of the unknown will be here, and I can live with that, knowing for certain that I still have my yoga practice and my cherished community.
At this time, I do not know when it will be safe to reopen our studio doors. In our last virtual OBY teacher meeting, we discussed doing so when we all feel safe and ready, not necessarily when the re-opening phase occurs. In the meantime, our teachers are still working hard, providing yoga to us while we stay safe in our homes, and for that I am deeply grateful.
This community, now extending far beyond our little studio, has kept me going, one day at a time, and with the deeper sense of hope for the future. Thank you for allowing us into your home yoga practice, your continued support keeps us hopeful.
Wishing you more peace and self-care,